An Apology.

I haven't been around much at all. Okay, none. I am sorry. There was some family drama that is still going on. Not between DH and I, but my immediate family. While this is not uncommon, it's just a bit more intense than usual beginning with Thanksgiving and all through Christmas. I have to say, it's made writing and doing anything else beyond work and spending time with DH difficult. I can't focus on much of anything.

There are times I wish I wasn't a member of such a large family. Siblings can be a blessing... and a curse. I have three sisters and two brothers. Yes, a large family. I am in the middle some where there. Because of the way my mother is, there is a great deal of jealousy. (sigh) I try to stay out of it most of the time, but it has been impossible lately. And it's sooo draining. I have no energy every time I talk on the phone to one of my siblings. "Did you hear what Mom did now? or what S did? or..."

It's not that I don't care. I do, but I just don't want to be in that loop any more. I spent many years dealing with my own jealousies and finally letting them go. I've come to accept how my mother is and her actions and realize they have nothing to do with me, but it's hard to stay objective sometimes, especially when it's the favorite sibling that is suffering.

Okay. I am done with the pity post. I promise to be back more often.

Kit